Laziness Will Cease Your Growth
I was becoming COMPLACENT. Just the thought of knowing the time and effort I needed to put in to become close to the woman I saw in the dream was another category I didn't think I could take on. Or was I just becoming complacent to bettering myself overall because I didn’t want to invest in that time and effort
Laziness, settling, and complacency are probably the most dangerous alternations to accept for anyone's lifestyle because they will put you in a position where you will never reach your fullest potential or whatever it is God may have for you.
One of the main questions I needed to ask myself every day was,
Will I be proud of the person I am today until tomorrow?
Asking myself this question put me in a mind-frame to prepare for the next chapter in my life, even if that meant stepping outside my comfort zone or going against the norm. Despite my emotions, circumstances, or anything else that was a hindrance, my main priority was progressing myself. I wanted a routine that fitted my lifestyle—making time for myself and a balanced daily practice, which would naturally turn into a healthy lifestyle. Whether it was taking time for God, abstaining from sex, not cursing, reading my bible for at least 15 minutes, etc., I wanted a lifestyle that was pleasing to God, and it made me smile, knowing I was doing better for the sake of my humanity and future.
Except I was so focused on becoming, I didn't realize I could Be! Being focused on what I was doing wrong, I never acknowledge what I was doing right. I created a mental checklist that became this stumbling block because constant criticism didn't allow me to learn from my mistakes.
Instead of applying this type of pressure to become her, I needed to be her. I was her. Recognizing that any self-progression takes time, effort, patience, and dedication. Having a willingness to allow God to uproot what didn’t belong, which took time. Growth is a process.
I realize in finding my new identity, I have always been the woman I have been working towards; she has always been in me. It was just a matter of chipping away the things I needed to let go of; anything or anyone that has stopped me from being her, regardless of the detours, mishaps, or mistakes I may have caused myself, big or small. Knowing that I cannot do anything out of my own strength but the strength that is given through Christ Jesus.
