Being Vulernable

Being vulnerable with God can be terrifying. Being vulnerable with God can be scary. Why? Because you are allowing yourself to be open enough for God to meet you at your every need. The only thing is, what you're expecting can be hard to accept when your surroundings and circumstances become contrary to what you are waiting on.

Over the years, I have built up this brick wall from every disappointment or failed expectation I've received from someone. It could have been from my parents, friends, or even strangers. Regardless of who it was from, I had to teach my heart to trust no one. And you know what happened? The same wall created friction with my relationship with God because it was difficult for me to trust. How can I trust man, who I can see?, when I had to trust God, in who I couldn't see?

As my relationship with God began to develop, there was multiple trial and error; I needed to become Vulnerable. Not allowing suppress emotions to be my freedom or brushing off every failed matter when it affected me. God showed me that even in those moments of hurt, frustration, or a broken heart from anyone, including Him, I needed to be vulnerable and willing to open up. Because in any relationship, there is an opportunity to either open up or close off. To describe how I feel and talk about what's bothering me or to suppress every emotion?

And the funny thing is, God knows your exact feeling and what you are thinking, but there has to be communication, just like any relationship. In those moments in opening your mouth, you need to confess your emotions and how you feel to reassure you that you are not in denial. That you need to be honest with yourself, just as much you are honest with God.

What God revealed to me, vulnerability, won't resist any heartache; but it will make your heart, mind, spirit, and body available for healing and any acknowledgment that has remained hidden. That needs to be uprooted or brought to the light.

Being honest and open with God is probably the most crucial part of the relationship with Him, even when I am faithless. When people ignore this, they may think this is a lack of faith when it's not. It's increasing my confidence in vulnerability with Him. Acknowledging my faith needs to be strengthened. One day at a time, this is improving my faith to trust God more and more.

It's all in the process, so trust it.